Back To December..

Waaaaaaaww!! December it is now.. 4 more days then it'll be a new year ahead!.. Soooo fast what?!! (O.o)  
Hmmm, resolutions? I think I just want life to be as happier as before, may all good things happen in the coming new year 2013. :)
O yeah, forgot about 1 thing.. i was hoping to get at least 3.6 above for my next & next pointers.. Amen to that! :)
May God continue to bless me, my family, cousins, friends and love one each and everyday of our lives.
Amen.

~The best is yet to come! ^^

Life is wonderful..but..?

Well, i know.. this is my latest post in my blog. and when im writing here, it means something ain't right is happening around me. Yaa, if u notice i only post something when i feel so sad, so happy, so overwhelmed and so-so.
For now,  i just dont know what to write anymore.. i'm just too sad with my life. this is what i felt sometimes.
Think again. Yes, i might look happy and outgoing on the outside, but on the inside i'm dying, hurting and sometimes losing hope. I just don't know why i'm feeling like this most of the time
Thinking back again, I might just lose some hope in God which is something that I must'n do.
Actually I don't know what I'm writing right now. I just feel that sometimes my friends, my loved one and my own family are not noticing the pain i'm hiding inside.
Yeaa, i felt backstabbed sometimes, for them not keeping promises, what they said and so on. I'm just thinking that everyone might not love me for who I am and they just love me for what they see and not by knowing me.
Sometimes I think I'm having depression too, but not up to the critical stage laa..
Jeeeez, I really don't know what is happening in me right now, my hormones are unstable, maybe.
If anyone did read this, I just want u to know that every person have their own feelings. We just need to share the love with everyone around us, not only to the people that we think are our bestfriends or someone really close to us.
Every people have their own reasons for not doing something, Every people have their own reasons for not having to share something, and Every people have their own reasons for keeping their secrets to their owns.
Nobody can judge anybody in this world. Yes, only God can judge us.
I'm just feeling really down right now, and I believe Jesus is the only one that understands me now. He never leaves me, always at my side and wept with me as I wept in silence.
Thank You Jesus  for this wonderful life of mine. There are many ups and downs at present and in the days to come, but I know and I believe that You will never leave me.
He is the reason why i'm still smiling amidst all the challenges I'm facing in this life.
I love you dear, my friends and family. But I love Jesus more. :) ~ the best is yet to come! ^^

YEAHHHH for me!! :D

Oh yeahhh!!yesterday i'd checked my last sem's exam result..and it was like "really??!"
Well, i'm soo happy!i didn't expect that much of a result..because I usually get 3.5 and below pointer for the past 3 semester!Thank God that I got way ahead (a little bit hehe)of what I expect I would get..:)
So, talking about how God has helped me through everything these whole years of my life,I also would like to thank God for His wondrous blessings and most of all LOVE!!
I want to share about this feeling of mine,.that I felt last Saturday morning..As the SYD cross is being carried to St.Theresa, TBN church..huhuhuhu... i was sooooooo touched!and I could actually feel His presence as the cross is being carried towards the church.. <3my heart was beating really fast & I was shivering along the way..as if the Lord Jesus really came to us & meeting us there!Oh Jesus, I love You sooooooo much!!! :DCan't wait for the coming Sabah Youth Day-3 (SYD3)which is to take place in Tambunan this year!! :))
May we all be blessed and be full of faith, hope and love each & everyday days of our lives.

~the best is yet to come! ^^

God bless all of us..

Dear God, at first, i thought i'm not too good and nice enough to have You in my life..i was full of sins,i was sooo sad and hurt,i was regretful for some things,and most of all..i was WEAK.
Butthrough all my weaknesses, i found that i am indeed in need of Your mercy and love..I thought i was the bad little girl that You have..never even thought that there would be somebody out there,that have much burden on You..and I feel really sorry for that somebody..
I thought that somebody was someone whom i thought as nice as an angel..acting true to that somebody self.
But sadly,it turns out that that somebody isn't who i think that somebody is..i'm sooo sad to even think about our friendship,that somebody that i used to know..
Never did i thought that that somebody would ever do something like that..i'm too shock and sadden by hearing upon your past..God please help that somebody..bless her and him and me and she and he and everbody elseespecially those who are in need of Your love and forgiveness..
I'm not judging anyone,but as what I can see..we should not behave differently as who we are suppose to be,OURSELF,especially behind of  everybody else..
I'm not saying that i'm the angel here,i'm just saying that please don't act like you are an angelwhen actually you are not..we are all not worthy in front of Him,.but I know one thingthat if we only let Him in our hearts..we know how to control ourselves,how to be someone special in front of Him,how to be His good friend and how to be true to ourself.
Our heavenly Father,we pray that all youngsters,especially teenagers and those on their way becoming an adult,which includes me and all my dearest friends,be full with faith, hope and love in You.Lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from evil.Amen.


~the best is yet to come!! ^^

June it is...

walawe..June ordy today..hmm,..4 more days till my first final exam paper..waaaa,..haven't occupied my brain with enough infos' yet~..urghhh..
just now i've watched Snow White & The Huntsman movie..ok la, so so..good beginning though but yet,.not so interesting ending..huhu..
Ok laa..still have time to study now! :Dhave to use each and every single minute that I can to revise..
I can do it!!Hiyaaaaaaaaaa!!Daebak!Aja aja! Fighting!!Maino kotii! :))



~the best is yet to come! ^^..

Study Week!!

Omo3!!...this week is actually our study week..but i'm here spending my 'holiday' at home..waaa,palinggg manang la!Hmm,.why soo lazy this?!Can't wait for our long holiday...
On the 22nd Jun 2012, we'll be going to Pitas..Will be having my big bro 100 days memorial there..Huhu..i miss my big bro, he's been like a father to me since daddy left this world too..But I know he's okay now,.being there beside our Father in heaven..:')
Well, today's the 29th May..31st will be the Harvest Festivalor what we call here as Tadau Kaamatan..I'll be visiting KDCA if have friends to accompany me..& hopefully I have some time to go there on that day too!:D
Oklaa,.I think I'll write again later..Till then,.
God bless my mummy, siblings, in-laws, nieces, nephews, cousins & my loved one.Amen.:)
~The best is yet to come! ^^

Letter from Jesus..

Hai.

Saya bha ni, Yesus. Buli ka sa ambik masa bercakap dengan kau sekijap? ^_^
Harap2 kau tidak rasa lain cara saya bercerita dengan kau, sebab sa mau ikut cara kau bercakap juga. 

Sekijap ja, buli bha kan..?.. ^_^

Sa mau tanya kau bha ni. Kau kenal saya ka? Memang kau pernah dengar pasal saya selama ni kan, 

durang bilang sayalah yang kena salib, dan sebelum kena salib sa kena pukul beberapa kali, kena kasi pakai mahkota duri tu.

Kau ada masalah ka yang kau mau kasi cerita dengan saya? 

Sebab sa dapat rasa yang kau betul betul banyak terluka ni, dan banyak bebanan kau. 

Tapi kau bukan keseorangan tau, banyak lagi yang mengalami macam itu sekarang. 

Masa saya jadi manusia macam kamu dua ribu tahun yang lalu, banyak percubaan yang saya lalui juga, 

terutama sekali masa mau angkat tu salib. Sakit betul tau.

 Sebenarnya kalau ikut betul, saya tidak sanggup sudah tu. 

Tapi masa saya mau mengalah tu kan, saya ingat kau. 

Dosa yang kau pikul tu, saya mau kasi tebus. Itu sebab saya teruskan sampai diatas bukit Golgota.

Saya sayang betul kau tau. Kadang kadang masa kau buat sesuatu yang tidak bagus kan,

 sedih betul saya tu tau. Ada banyak kali kau kasi lupa saya. 

Ada masa lagi kau tidak mau pegi sembayang hari minggu kan, sebab mau buat kerja lain.

 Saya cemburu tu,sebab kau tidak kasi utama sa, dan sebab dalam seminggu tu, 6 hari sa tunggu kau mau pegi church. 

Tapi rupa rupanya, kau tidak pegi. 

Kau selalu pray ka? Saya selalu tunggu kau mau bercakap dengan saya tau, macam sekarang ini.

Tapi saya mau kau tau yang didalam saya, sentiasa ada pengampunan, sentiasa ada peluang kedua. 

Kau mau berubah ka? Sebab saya senantiasa tunggu saat kau mau berubah dan ikut saya.

Saya sayang kau betul. Kaulah anak yang saya kasihi. 

Saya memerhati kau setiap saat. Saya mau ambil semua kesengsaraan yang kau alami di dunia ini, dan campakkan jauh jauh. 

Maukah kau jadi anak saya? Sebab saya akan menunggu kau. 

Saya menunggu kedatangan kau ke dalam kerajaan saya, dan buat party besar besaran untuk kau. Sebab saya sayang kau. 

Sebesar mana kasih orang lain kepada kau di dunia ini, kasih saya kepada kau tiada batasannya. 

Satu saja saya minta dari kau, supaya kau bersabar, 

selalu keep in touch dengan saya, dan beritahu yang lain kasih saya kepada kau, 

supaya dorang pun tau yang saya mengasihi mereka, sama seperti saya mengasihi kau.

Saya mau kau tahu yang saya sentiasa akan bagi kau kekuatan. 

Kalau kau rasa down kan, di mana2 saja kau, kau ingat saja yang saya sentiaaasa di sebelah kau. ^_^

Saya mau peluk kau, boleh ka? Tutup mata kau ar, sa mau peluk kau.

Ingat, saya sayang kau. Boleh kau kasi letak dua2 tangan kau di dada kau? 

Ah, di sanalah saya tu. Dekat di hati kau. ^_^

Love, Jesus.

JC..I need You.

Dear God,what am I supposed to do?what is Your message that You are trying to tell me?please do give me Your answer or a simple sign would be enough for me..to know what You are up to,to know what Your will for me is,and to know my callings in this lowly life of mine.
I'm trying to accept all things happened,and I am being stronger each day because of You,my Lord God.
Thank You for all the trials that You have given me,along this 7 months of experiencing Your love,and I will try my very best to seek my part in this calling of Yours.
May I'll be much stronger and grow more in faith, hope and love of Jesus, Himself.
Lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from evil.Amen. +




~the best is yet to come!! ^^


 

it's 2012!! God bless me.

Happy New Year to all! still not too late to wish eh =D..

hmm, as to begin with, I gotta say that I think I don't have any common new resolution this year..whoaa!!

not like last year, and on 2010..

My resolution back then was trying not to be someone else that I'm not!.duhh~

but,.after spending some seconds of time thinking just now,.

I realise that I do actually have my own resolution for this year! Hooray for me!! yeahh..O.o

well I was thinking of being someone more hardworking and dependent..

Yes, that's it. Being more persistent on doing something and being more confident!!

Now I still have one more paper left for my final exam..

will have the last one next monday (16th Jan)! waaa!!..

hmm,just now I had one paper..

it was like,.sooo copy pasted from last years' paper!

haiiyaaa...why I didn't do the past year eh~..=.=''

anyways, thank God I did my best just now! haha..=D

So,.

I have to say that 2011 has been another year to be remembered in my book of life..

As what I can only say is, there's sooo much things going on last year..

with me being happy, sad, disappointed, excited, doubtful, angry, loving and soo much more..

well, you'll never know what's hiding behind every person's smile..

Yes, I've been through that one situation where I was really really really

happy at first,...but then......it suddenly just went away..

It was like a fairytale story came true at first,. but not with a smooth flow of story then..

well, I know you won't understand this (to those reading-if got any)..

but..I think someday, somehow you'll be understanding what I've actually been through..

I'm actually in a quite difficult situation right now,.

I don't know how I can help this person-someone really important to me..

I don't even know what I'm supposed to do, act and hope for..

but all I can do now is just pray and hope,

that someday,..

there will be an answer to my every prayers;

there will be an answer to all questions;

there will be forgiveness, acceptance and most of all..love.

I believe that God is always there for us.

I believe that He will never leave me alone, and will always guide me on my way..=)

Oh God,.

how I really really really really really wish that everything doesn't have to happen like that..

But I know that there's no turning back in time..

Past is past. Live for the present and hope for the future.

all I can do know is just to wait and hope for something better in the future.

I know I'm happy in the outside, but inside..I'm not.

Only He can make me smile again and made me even stronger!=)

Dear God,

I pray that You will always bless all the people whom I loved and cared in my life;

I pray that You will enlighten their lives as You have done in mine;

I pray that everyone will be filled with love, faith and hope in You and in us all;

I pray that there will be forgiveness and acceptance in everyone's hearts;

and most of all..

I pray that You will never leave us alone along this journey of life.

Bless me, him, her and everyone else.

Thank You Lord Jesus,

for You alone are God and our bestfriend of all.

Amen.+

~the best is yet to come! ^^