Life is wonderful..but..?

Well, i know.. this is my latest post in my blog. and when im writing here, it means something ain't right is happening around me. Yaa, if u notice i only post something when i feel so sad, so happy, so overwhelmed and so-so.
For now,  i just dont know what to write anymore.. i'm just too sad with my life. this is what i felt sometimes.
Think again. Yes, i might look happy and outgoing on the outside, but on the inside i'm dying, hurting and sometimes losing hope. I just don't know why i'm feeling like this most of the time
Thinking back again, I might just lose some hope in God which is something that I must'n do.
Actually I don't know what I'm writing right now. I just feel that sometimes my friends, my loved one and my own family are not noticing the pain i'm hiding inside.
Yeaa, i felt backstabbed sometimes, for them not keeping promises, what they said and so on. I'm just thinking that everyone might not love me for who I am and they just love me for what they see and not by knowing me.
Sometimes I think I'm having depression too, but not up to the critical stage laa..
Jeeeez, I really don't know what is happening in me right now, my hormones are unstable, maybe.
If anyone did read this, I just want u to know that every person have their own feelings. We just need to share the love with everyone around us, not only to the people that we think are our bestfriends or someone really close to us.
Every people have their own reasons for not doing something, Every people have their own reasons for not having to share something, and Every people have their own reasons for keeping their secrets to their owns.
Nobody can judge anybody in this world. Yes, only God can judge us.
I'm just feeling really down right now, and I believe Jesus is the only one that understands me now. He never leaves me, always at my side and wept with me as I wept in silence.
Thank You Jesus  for this wonderful life of mine. There are many ups and downs at present and in the days to come, but I know and I believe that You will never leave me.
He is the reason why i'm still smiling amidst all the challenges I'm facing in this life.
I love you dear, my friends and family. But I love Jesus more. :) ~ the best is yet to come! ^^